Accepting my depression and anxiety has been a challenge and accepting I likely will need to take medication to help me maintain mental health well being has been a hard lesson to learn.
I spent two weeks in Iqaluit, Nunavut, working in a new context and role, away from my support and coping strategies. I did not break down nor did I need to increase my anxiety/depression medication. I thrived! I convinced myself I had sufficiently increased my, Social and Emotional Intelligence, enough to overcome my mental illness and I decreased my medication dosage, without consulting my doctor.
Yup, just shake your head as you know this was not a good choice.
“My name is Charlene and I have a mental illness!” I have been riding the acceptance roller coaster, for over a decade. I am a smart individual but I continually choose to sabotage myself.
Why do we, those affected, educated and supported, in our coping strategies, still believe we can overcome the chemical imbalance’s in our brains?
Within two weeks the downward spiral began although I was in denial, I visited my doctor and I received the kick in the ass I needed. I was reminded I had developed unique strategies to stop the spiral of disempowerment. Today the denial is once again lifted and I am back on track. I am blessed to have discovered the strategies that empower me to succeed in my life. I am also aware that sometimes strategies that once worked will need to be altered allow for flexibility and invest in your empowerment.
Life is hard! We all need self-awareness opportunities and support to allow us to empower ourselves.
“Imperfect Perspectives" will consist of written and video format. The writing and videos will be imperfect as I am the composer and director and I am perfectly imperfect! Be genuine, have the hard conversations and be compassionate to self and other. Be empowered!